Billie Eilish bercerita banyak soal hubungannya di masa lalu dalam album terbarunya yang rilis Mei lalu, Hit Me Hard and Soft. “Wildflower” menjadi salah satu judul yang dianggap sebagai ‘curhatan’ Billie akan salah satu mantannya, Jesse Rutherford.
“Wildflower” menggambarkan hubungan percintaan dan pertemanan yang berkelindan dan akhirnya menjadi rumit.
Coba bayangkan, apa jadinya jika pacarmu yang sekarang adalah mantan dari temanmu sendiri?
Ketika dihadapkan dengan situasi semacam ini, seseorang biasanya akan merasakan sebuah dilema. Selain itu, ada pula perasaan takut jika sang kawan menganggapnya sebagai pengkhianat.
Kegundahan inilah yang diceritakan Billie dalam lagu “Wildflower”. Kekasihnya pada saat itu, yang diduga adalah Jesse, merupakan mantan dari Devon Lee Carlson yang merupakan teman Billie.
Pertemanan keduanya cukup dekat, bahkan Devon pernah menangis dan mencurahkan isi hatinya di bahu Billie, sebagaimana disebut Billie pada lirik, “She was cryin’ on my shoulder, all I could do was hold her.”
Oleh sebab itu, Billie merasa bersalah ketika akhirnya dia justru berpacaran dengan Jesse yang sebelumnya merupakan kekasih Devon. Billie tak bisa menghilangkan bayang-bayang sang kawan saat sedang bersama dengan Jesse.
Ia pun mempertanyakan apakah tindakannya itu telah melewati batas. Lirik “Did I cross the line?” pun dinyanyikannya secara berulang dalam lagu ini.
Lirik lagu “Wildflower” - Billie Eilish
Things fall apart and time breaks your heart
I wasn't there, but I know
She was your girl, you showed her the world
You fell out of love and you both let go
She was cryin' on my shoulder, all I could do was hold her
Only made us closer until July
Now I know that you love me, you don't need to remind me
I should put it all behind me, shouldn't I?
But I see her in the back of my mind
All the time
Like a fever, like I'm burning alive
Like a sign
Did I cross the line?
Mm, hm
Baca Juga:Lirik dan Makna Lagu “What Was I Made For” Billie Eilish yang Mempertanyakan Tentang Diri Sendiri
Well, good things don't last (good things don't last)
And life moves so fast (life moves so fast)
I'd never ask who was better (I'd never ask who was better)
'Cause she couldn't be (she couldn't be)
More different from me (more different)
Happy and free (happy and free) in leather
And I know that you love me (you love me)
You don't need to remind me (remind me)
Wanna put it all behind me, but baby
I see her in the back of my mind (back of my mind)
All the time (all the time)
Feels like a fever (like a fever), like I'm burning alive (burning alive)
Like a sign
Did I cross the line?
You say no one knows you so well (oh)
But every time you touch me, I just wonder how she felt
Valentine's Day, cryin' in the hotel
I know you didn't mean to hurt me, so I kept it to myself
And I wonder
Do you see her in the back of your mind?
In my eyes?
You say no one knows you so well
But every time you touch me, I just wonder how she felt
Valentine's Day, cryin' in the hotel
I know you didn't mean to hurt me, so I kept it to myself